February 2011
9 posts
I hate when you have a really good workout
but then its 10:00p and you’re starving and trying to resist the urge to eat, but all you want to do is eat cake and icecream. Screw you cake and ice cream.
Feb 1st
January 2011
16 posts
Scripted
‘What we say we believe is only meaningful when we act it out’ -Anna Espich
Jan 31st
I'm so thankful for my friends
& I don’t feel like I tell them that enough.
Jan 26th
The big ocean blue,
See, during the two months you were gone, I learned how to swim. I learned how to be okay in the big ocean by myself.  At times, I really felt like I was going to die. The water pulled me under, and I was drowning. I didn’t know how to get back up. I know I wanted air, but I didn’t know how to get to it. And then I figured it out, I moved my arms and feet. I reached the surface of the...
Jan 24th
I know
I know this is a bad idea.  I know this is going to be hard when it ends.  I know it will end, again.  I know I will cry a lot. I know I’m an idiot.  I know. So why don’t I care?
Jan 23rd
Jan 18th
Jan 17th
6,228 notes
Drugs
I felt like an old person today. When I woke up, I started off the day with 2 Advil, 2 vitamin C, and 2 tablespoons of DayQuil. I also left the house fully equipped with a whole pack of cough drops. By the time I finally left school, I had 4 cough drops. Then, I went to the doctor. Here I got some antibiotics (Thank gosh!), and quickly took those. 2 z-pack, 2 Munifest D, 2 tablespoons of...
Jan 17th
Black
Four deaths. Four funerals. All in one year. Are you serious, God?
Jan 17th
Repeat
Call 911, see you leave on a stretcher, follow the car, arrive, feel the omniscient feeling of death and sorrow, wait, wait, wait, you can see him now, but no, that’s not him, that’s not my grandpa.  You’re just laying there, no life in you, leave the room, let a few tears escape, maybe more, pull it back together, wait, wait, wait, not know how long we truly have with you, but...
Jan 13th
Jan 11th
Tick tock goes the clock
Have you realized the amount of time we spend waiting? I realized this Friday night. Immediate. Waiting at Charandas. Waiting for a table. Waiting on my friends to arrive. Waiting to tell them what happened to me at work. Waiting to get in that warm hot tub. Emotional. Waiting to feel okay. Waiting for us to be friends. Waiting for the day you text me. Waiting to find out your prom date....
Jan 10th
Used gum
If you were wondering, it still hurts. I wish pretending you didn’t bother me, actually meant that you didn’t. That I was okay. But I’m not. Why don’t you text me? Try to talk to me? Ask me how I’m doing? Contact me at all? Don’t you care? I just don’t understand how I could go from being your whole world, to just another girl. Not even a second thought....
Jan 7th
Jan 7th
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“‎”Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You...”
– If only I could actually do this.
Jan 4th
Procrastination
I don’t want to write this essay I don’t want to write this essay I don’t want to write this essay I don’t want to write this essay I don’t want to write this essay I don’t want to write this essay I don’t want to write this essay I don’t want to write this essay I don’t want to write this essay I don’t want to write this essay ...
Jan 2nd